Life have its up and down part. And this moment, yea down part hits me again. I wish to be ignored, to be dumped, to be hated, called trash or trouble to someone, inhumane, you name it ! To live, isn’t easy.
Yes most people might feel lucky to live in this beautiful world but Im not one of them. I rather feel tortured, humiliated.
I’m not like my mates who spend their minutes and seconds with smiles and blessed. I’m not a girl who people think I am. They don’t understand how difficult for me to pass through every minutes, seconds. With sadness, with sorrow. Just horrible.
I wonder what people thinks about me ? Probably just a troublesome girl who grown up in seria, lives in chai’s resident, studies in smsa, happily spending her life. Wonderful ! Bravo.
Why don’t people shut their own fuhken mouth and live their own, not interrupting other’s life? Why don’t people stop bothering ? Who do they spread rumors ? Maybe that’s just how they live. The way of living, making themselves cozy with their life.
I choose to live on my own way. Ignoring, careless, uninterested in anyone, less talk, more thoughts, more expectation & big disappointment. Hoping that makes me feel better…
Leave me alone.